This is the continuation of my post for the “mushy-est” messages I’ve received about LOVE. On the count of 3, 1-2-awww…

1. I wish I could shout out all the questions in my mind…But something’s stopping me…It’s the fear of breaking my heart upon hearing the answers…

2. Sometimes we are in love with the idea of falling in love. Loving the illusion of having or missing someone…It’s alright to feel happy through other people, but don’t get dependent on achieving happines by being with someone. Love yourself first before sharing your life with somebody else, because if you don’t, you will always look for people that you think can make you complete…and in the end, it will make you lose yourself more…bit by bit…piece by piece…

3. I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they’re right. You believe in lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself…and sometimes, good things fall apart, so better things can fall together…

4. Forget “what if”…because the more you ask yourself this, the more you’re making youself feel you made the wrong choice and you will never be happy with your decision…

5. Sometimes, you just can’t have what you want when you want it…But that doesn’t mean you can never have it. Everything takes place at the right time. It’s not no, it’s just not now…

6. Real closure happens when you don’t care anymore. It is when you don’t feel any pain even if you’re aware that he is with someone else…

7. “It hurt when I lost each of the various men I fell in love with. Now, though, I am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone. That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it.” - Maria, from Eleven Minutes by Paolo Coelho

Looking forward for more…

In love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel.

I’m always in the constant look-out for something new to do and it was a good thing because I found a “conspirator” in my Bes April (ika nga, may kasabwat, hehehe). So we decided to check-in at Makati Shangri-la one Friday night after work and made ourselves comfortable with the king-sized beds, awesome view of the CBD, countless chikahans and good ol’ vanilla milkshake.

Of course, hindi mawawala ang pag-reminisce sa ‘ming mga adventures, mis-adventures, highschool and college experiences at iba pang mga kapalpakan sa buhay, hehehe. Sayang nga ’cause ‘di kami kumpleto, e ‘di sana mas magulo at masaya.

But seriously, I learned a lot from this sojourn and talking to one of my best buds helped me a lot. Oh and musn’t I forget, the picture-taking sessions we so totally become addicted to. Let the pictures speak for themselves…

The Amazing Bathtub

Our comfy beds

The spic ‘n span washroom 

Me and my sofa

Bes and Me

Bes and me again

Me!

Si Bes sa headboard

 Kami pa rin

 Karamay namin sa magdamag

 Si Bes posing!

Kuha namin ni Bes near the headboard 

Bes, hinay-hinay lang sa mini-bar

Sino kaya sinisilip ni Bes? Hehehe

Dungawin mo…

Say cheese!

Bes, ang tight ng hold mo sa pillow a, sino ba’ng iniimagine mo na ka-hug mo?

Sa swivel chair

Bago uwian

One last shot

Makati on a Saturday morning

“When I had nothing to lose, I had everything. When I stopped being who I am, I found myself“…

Finally, nagkita-kita rin kami nina Anj and Cinds sa Glorietta last week. Sangkatutak ding cancellations ang naganap pero eto na, hehehe…It was really a blast seeing two of my closest gal pals, sigh, parang last year lang e we graduated…Bonding to the max over life, relationships, BK and cheesecake.

I capped the night off by hanging out with another girl bud of mine, Tin. Ayun, nagkayayaan mag-drinking session kaya 2 lang ang na-produce na pics, hahaha…

Malas nga naman, dahil nawalan ng battery ang aking digicam kaya eto lang ang na-produce naming pics of our travel to La Union on Holy Week. No visual background to show but at least meron pa ring pics, hahaha

I was having a crappy time until I saw Juno :

Juno: I wonder if two people can stay together for good…I need to know that it’s possible that two people can stay happy together forever.

Mac McGuff (Juno’s Dad): Well, it’s not easy, that’s for sure. Look, in my opinion the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what-have-you. The right person is still going to think the sun shines out of your ass. That’s the kind of person that’s worth sticking with.

Then, like a light bulb inside my head, my somewhat crappy state was turned off

Finally, I saw 27 Dressses and had my fair share of Katherine Heigl’s amazing big screen presence. I’ve been wanting to watch this movie but just didn’t have the time to do so. I haven’t watched rom-coms for quite some time and I was really surprised that this movie made me tear up a bit What really touches me in the movie was not when the protagonists ended up together (it’s already given), but the fact that there are really people who bicker and fight all the time and still manage to pull everything together. I wish that I could be one of those people. I wish that I could just mellow out all the tension and not let anything get into me.

I wish that I could just be in my world where everything I desire is perfection and there are no means for hurt and anger to seep through. I wish that I can just swallow my pride like a pill and humility will soon take effect after. I wish that even though I must stay strong, I can admit defeat and wave my white flag. I wish that sometime soon no one and nothing can spoil my happiness. And I wish that like a child I can be handed a big, red balloon, wonder at its shiny color and illicit an infinte smile on my face.

Something to cap off my long weekend as Leona Lewis puts it:

But I don’t care what they say, I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I keep bleeding…

Ever since I started using the cellphone, I regularly jot down the text messages that pulled my heart’s strings. It can be a corny joke, an inspiring quote, the saddest movie line, a useful advice or even a funny anecdote. My phone can only hold so much and I thought of compiling them here and practice a paper-less environment (hahaha). I’ll be doing this in batches so I’m going to start with the most overrated yet everyone’s favorite subject: LOVE.  Now, here’s to filling our need of mushy-ness (in no particular order):

1. Commitment is the foundation of all true loving. Long after the romance has died, long after summer is gone, love survives because of commitment.

2. “How do you know it’s love? When it can’t be anything else…“

3. ”The most important thing is not to be bitter over life’s difficulties. Learn to let go of the past and recognize that everyday won’t be sunny, and when you find yourself lost in darkness and despair, remember - it’s only in the black of night that you can see the stars, and those stars will lead you back home. So don’t be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble, to fall. Because most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing things that scare you the most.”

4. “Memories are wonderful things, if you don’t have to deal with the past…”

5. Love is when you look back on all your great memories and found out that the one you least expected to fall in love with becomes the one person of your dream.

6. “You know it’s love when the tiny details about another person, one that’s insignificant to most people seem fascinating and incredible to you.”

7. Somebody once asked me, “How do you hold love?” I answered, “With your hands wide open, your palms facing up and with you heart ready to let go and let the other grow.” And that somebody asked, “What if it hurts you?” I smiled wistfully and said, “Then it means you’re doing it right…”

8. “What do people do when they lose the one thing they think is worth fighting for? They spend their whole life waiting for a second chance…”

9. What if you don’t believe in love…then someone teaches you how…then you fall for him and you believe but…what if he’s not suppose to love you…only to teach you…

10. There are so many stars in the sky, only some are radiant enough to be noticed. Among those you chose to ignore is the one, which is willing to shine for you forever even if you glance remains elsewhere.

11. You were looking at the brightest star in the sky wishing that the best man would come your way. But you’ve been staring at it too long that you don’t know he’s watching you close.

12. Relationships-of all kinds-are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possesively, and the relationship slips away and is lost.  

To be continued…